The Boy Who Stutters

You laugh at your own jokes every time You smile like you have done a crime And now, I don’t know what will rhyme I just like to treat you like prime I didn’t plan to write a poem I just thought to make you a letter You know, I’m being sweet here, ahem! Can’t think of a word that sounds better Forgive me for being like this I know yesterday was a miss I want to make it up to you I wrote this poem, you have no clue You’re the sweetest, you’re the loveliest Yet I’m snob and no eagerness I’m reluctant and not compulsive Yet you’re spontaneous and expressive I love you and this is going lengthy Let me cut this and stop the cheesy I love you, and yet this is not easy I want this to sound a little breezy Ending this with a menu Because it has me-n-u Lists of choices that are true Hoping that you choose me, too. -TBWS November 9, 2015

This is probably your first time to receive a letter from me and my first time to write one for you. I hope that this would help me express my feelings and I hope this would help me to state the things I wanted to say.  You caught my attention! Not in the ways I wanted and expected but in the ways that I never expected for me to get into.  You’re different. You’re different in unique and incredible way. You’ve changed.  You’ve changed into someone who I would fall in love with.  You became annoying, and yet it looks beautiful on you.  You became noisy, and yet it looks incredible on you.  You became naughty, and yet it looks amazing on you.  How could you do that?  How come that a girl like you, who has a common personality which I deeply found exceptional, can be the girl who would eventually catch my attention?  Despite all your different personality and irritating characteristics you have, you still look ador...

I've been through a lot lately; I lost a part of me. My past has broken me into nothingness but somehow it created me. I was troubled by the things I wasn't even sure mattered or would matter - until people think I just simply troubled myself for a clutter. I cannot find the right words to speak my mind or even if I do, I don't think it deserves to be spoken.  I am my biggest enemy. Fighting my alter ego with the conflicts none of us dared to confess has been my routine - at least every month or any random day of the week. It would hit me from nothingness, no matter how hard I try to figure out what caused it. Nothing. I thought of nothing; I chose to not put the blame on anything or to anyone because it would only just feel so wrong - so wrong I would end up just blaming myself. What goes on my head at any time of the day seems to be out of my control, always predictably unpredictable. My fears bombard me as much as my regrets. I almost always await what the future ...

You. You are the reason why I feel like this. This unusual feeling that most experience. This strange feeling that everyone will get to experience with the person they didn't expect, at the time they are not yet ready, and on the circumstances that everything seems so perfect. Complicated, isn't it? That's love. It happens in the least you expect it. I don't know when exactly this feeling started to grow. I'm not sure when this feeling started to develop. I'm uncertain about when and on how. How come that a person like me, dignified and has a reputation to keep, just suddenly fell in love to someone like you, who have a very extraordinary personality that is rare to be seen. It happened. Again, I don't know how and when; it just happened even I didn't intend to. I had no plans about you. I had no feelings for you. I had no affection and I didn't care about you. Actually - I had nothing about you. But those negatives suddenly turn into pos...

          Writing here and looking back, I don’t know how and where to begin. Let’s start with myself and my family. My parents gave me the name of “Ace Meelan” and until now, I didn’t bother to ask where it came from and how did they came up with such name. I live with my family. I have two siblings; namely, Aura Meeko and Aleszandra Meekaella. My brother is now in college while I’m only a ninth-grade student and my younger sister is just in kindergarten. Have you noticed anything about our names? They all have the initials of A and M which also came from the combined initials of our parents, Alex and Melody.           February 07. It’s a very special day for me. You want to know why? It’s my birthday! Of course, everyone’s birthday is very special for everybody. In 15 years of existence, there’s an unforgettable thing I won’t fail to recall. It’s when I forgot my birthday! It’s pretty silly ...

“I love you and it is okay if you don’t love me back,” she uttered those sincere words as her tears filled her cheeks. I was speechless for a moment, didn’t know what to respond, wasn’t even sure whether I should reply. But I surely remember I told her that I am sorry before our discourse ended. It was painful indeed, and that memory just won’t go away. That was the day someone has confessed her feelings to me for the first time – with courage and bravery. It was an experience I won’t fail to recall. We were classmate for seven years, but we didn’t become close until I started hanging out with her group of friends. She’s shy, smart, and modest. I was attracted to her; her personality enticed me. The thing is, I didn’t have the courage to admit it. Oh man! Only if you knew how our classmates teased us together, you would mistake us as lovers. I realized now that we were, but back then I wasn’t sure whether she liked me or whether she even knew I liked her. How cliché that may soun...

PHILOSOPHY If a friendship lasts longer than 7 years, psychologists say it will last a lifetime. Our friendship has only reached a year last February 14. I won’t say that our friendship will last because I am confident enough that we will –last. How can I say it? I just know. Even if there’s no guarantee, I want to believe my instinct that ours will last. Well, I am hoping; I’m wishing. The future is just yet to come and no one has ever have a glimpse of it. That is what we are; we keep on hoping and wishing for something to happen. We keep on dreaming and aiming for what we want. And that is what they give me, HOPE.  That is how friends should be like. They should keep their hope within themselves so you could also keep yours. Friends give you hope even you have lost it. Friends don’t only give you happiness, they also give you sadness, not a depressing sadness, but a sadness of remembrance and longing. Friends make you laugh when you feel bad. Friends make you smile when ...

ANALYSIS “Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything.”  –Muhammad Ali  I have valued friendship that much that I would take a bullet for it. That is how much I treasure the value of friendship that I have now. Indeed, it might be the hardest thing in the world to explain. It is because you are making an extraordinary connection between and an incredible bound within. How could you explain that kind of connection you have towards the people you treasure the most. I think no words are close enough to exactly define what it actually is. Only real friends could somehow understand what it really is and only genuine friends could read what is inexpressible in words; Real friends understand each other even behind their eyes and without speaking a word. We have made this ordinary connection like the most usually have and yet we managed...