The Boy Who Stutters

You laugh at your own jokes every time You smile like you have done a crime And now, I don’t know what will rhyme I just like to treat you like prime I didn’t plan to write a poem I just thought to make you a letter You know, I’m being sweet here, ahem! Can’t think of a word that sounds better Forgive me for being like this I know yesterday was a miss I want to make it up to you I wrote this poem, you have no clue You’re the sweetest, you’re the loveliest Yet I’m snob and no eagerness I’m reluctant and not compulsive Yet you’re spontaneous and expressive I love you and this is going lengthy Let me cut this and stop the cheesy I love you, and yet this is not easy I want this to sound a little breezy Ending this with a menu Because it has me-n-u Lists of choices that are true Hoping that you choose me, too. -TBWS November 9, 2015

This is probably your first time to receive a letter from me and my first time to write one for you. I hope that this would help me express my feelings and I hope this would help me to state the things I wanted to say.  You caught my attention! Not in the ways I wanted and expected but in the ways that I never expected for me to get into.  You’re different. You’re different in unique and incredible way. You’ve changed.  You’ve changed into someone who I would fall in love with.  You became annoying, and yet it looks beautiful on you.  You became noisy, and yet it looks incredible on you.  You became naughty, and yet it looks amazing on you.  How could you do that?  How come that a girl like you, who has a common personality which I deeply found exceptional, can be the girl who would eventually catch my attention?  Despite all your different personality and irritating characteristics you have, you still look ador...

I've been through a lot lately; I lost a part of me. My past has broken me into nothingness but somehow it created me. I was troubled by the things I wasn't even sure mattered or would matter - until people think I just simply troubled myself for a clutter. I cannot find the right words to speak my mind or even if I do, I don't think it deserves to be spoken.  I am my biggest enemy. Fighting my alter ego with the conflicts none of us dared to confess has been my routine - at least every month or any random day of the week. It would hit me from nothingness, no matter how hard I try to figure out what caused it. Nothing. I thought of nothing; I chose to not put the blame on anything or to anyone because it would only just feel so wrong - so wrong I would end up just blaming myself. What goes on my head at any time of the day seems to be out of my control, always predictably unpredictable. My fears bombard me as much as my regrets. I almost always await what the future ...

You. You are the reason why I feel like this. This unusual feeling that most experience. This strange feeling that everyone will get to experience with the person they didn't expect, at the time they are not yet ready, and on the circumstances that everything seems so perfect. Complicated, isn't it? That's love. It happens in the least you expect it. I don't know when exactly this feeling started to grow. I'm not sure when this feeling started to develop. I'm uncertain about when and on how. How come that a person like me, dignified and has a reputation to keep, just suddenly fell in love to someone like you, who have a very extraordinary personality that is rare to be seen. It happened. Again, I don't know how and when; it just happened even I didn't intend to. I had no plans about you. I had no feelings for you. I had no affection and I didn't care about you. Actually - I had nothing about you. But those negatives suddenly turn into pos...