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The Boy Who Stutters


"Good day everyone! Now, I am standing right here in front of you to deliver a speech to my fellow stutterers. I once imagined myself delivering a speech to my fellow stutterers and right now, I am definitely sure that this is a real one and not an imagination. I don’t know where to begin with but there’s one thing I’m sure about; to share my experiences in having this kind of condition to the people I always care for and to the people who need an inspiration, as well.  
When I was a child, I have no idea that I have this condition, stuttering. I am not aware that I speak that way until the people around me started to tease me, to make fun and laugh at me. As a child, I had many burdens to the people around me but of course, it was a childish act. I encountered several people and most of them teased me after hearing how I speak. I had a hard time coping with situation like that but as I grew up, I learned how to handle situations like that, and I realized that I’m different.  
I just want to share some of my experiences. A teacher told me that it’s a lifetime condition. It was the first time to hear those words. I didn’t know how to react or what to say. I couldn’t decide if I’ll take it as an insult or just informing me about my condition. Well, it doesn’t matter; at least she let me know.  
Next, you will not believe me. I had an experience in being an emcee before. My aunt asked me to be the host of my cousin’s birthday, her daughter’s 7th birthday. She’s surely aware about my condition and I don’t know what went to her mind to ask me so. Well, I hosted that event with my eldest female cousin; I wouldn’t accept it without any partner. I won’t share what happened that day.  😐😔
Lastly, I’m still experiencing it (right now), everyday. It is the urge to say something but I can’t, especially during class discussions. Every time a teacher asks questions and I know the answer, I want to raise my hand and answer it. I want to volunteer when no one does but I can’t. I’m afraid even I don’t care anymore if other people will laugh when I stutter.  
There comes a time when I want to be normal, not because I’m describing my condition as a disorder. I want to speak normally not because of envious. It’s because I want to use my knowledge to teach others, I want to share what I know, I want to help people. Because I think I have so much to give and so much to share. I’m not perfect, nobody is. I don’t know everything but I do know one thing; if you have that one thing that most people need, never hesitate to share it.  
Just because you’re different doesn’t mean you don’t belong to the group. I am the valedictorian of my batch when I was in grade school. How could you tell I’m different? I’m a consistent honor student since 1st grade. How could you judge me with my condition? I earned respect that I deserve from the people around me. I’m not boasting my achievements.  
Right now, I’m standing right here in front of you, still stuttering, still surviving and still fighting. I won’t use this condition to stop what I’ve started. I will never get tired to stand up and face the people to prove them what I got!  
That’s all, thank you!" 
This is a speech I wrote and delivered when I was in Grade 9 (2014-2015). It is very memorable since I just expressed who I am, I shared some struggles I encountered in childhood, and I spoke. Let me say that it went well that day. 😊😇




From then on, I called myself as the boy who stutters, as I evidently do. I also begun using it as my pen name.  Consequently, I just thought of using The Boy Who Stutters as the name of this blog.

I'll use this blog not only to save and to share my literary works but also as a way of expressing my thoughts and sharing the lessons I've learned in life in having this speech disorder.

- TBWS
April 19, 2017

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