TULA: Sukat at Tugma

SUKAT AT TUGMA

Nagbubuhol-buhol – buhol ang mga titik
Nagwawala, walang ideya sa isip
Sa lahat ng tanong, natira ang bakit
Bakit? …may mga bagay na di ko mabatid

Nasisid ang kailaliman ng dagat
Kataas-taasang hakbang ay naakyat
Ngunit hindi mawala-wala ang lamat
Sa mga ala-alang walang mga pamagat

‘Yong lumang basong hindi mapuno-puno
Busog sa umaapaw na argumento
At ika’y tumalon, natapos ang gulo
Tumahimik sila, loob ay nanlumo

Sinungaling ang tingin ng iyong mga mata
Nahulog sa bangin – walang nakakita
Mababaw raw pero sobrang tinik pala
Hoy! Bigyan pansin naman nawa ng madla.

Ang Hikahos ng Depresyon
12.15.17
Image by Thomas Budach from Pixabay

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